I will post a before picture later that shows what I looked like before my first weigh-in.
I didn’t lose all the baby weight I gained with my first pregnancy 15 years ago. When I got pregnant with my second son 4 years ago, the OB-GYN told me the max I should gain is 20 lb. I managed to gain and lose those 20 lb. I worried about what I ate. When I binged on candy, fast food, and frozen dinners, I beat myself up. Depression/anxiety, exhaustion and insomnia were kicking my butt! I moved to Pennsylvania and those 20 lb. crept back in. My stretchy yoga pants weren’t fitting so well anymore. I noticed my little belly became a jumbo muffin top that I couldn’t disguise anymore. Nothing fit. I felt uncomfortable in my own body.
I booked an appointment with my PCP. She told me that my BMI was 28.5 but I didn’t look fat. She was more concerned about my cigarette smoking and the health impact of that. I realized if I wasn’t careful I was going to become obese. My family history of cancer, diabetes, heart disease, and hypertension made weight management a priority. Especially since my mother died from complications due to high blood pressure. I knew that if I was going to focus on losing weight, I was going to need help.
“My name is Angelina and my nickname is Spike; I’ll respond to either one. I guess what triggered me to do something about my weight was when a neighbor told me ” ‘Hey Spike, I didn’t realize you looked so heavy.’
Now I’ve been called a lot of things in my life but “heavy” wasn’t one of them. She wasn’t a very nice person but it was the wake-up call that I needed. What makes it harder is that the people in my life are saying ‘you look great,’ ‘you’re not fat you don’t even need Weight Watchers?’
Well I must be ‘skinny fat’ because my BMI is 28.5 and that is considered overweight! I’m only a few pounds away from becoming obese. I want to learn how have a healthy relationship with food and stop the emotional eating cycle. Especially with the holidays coming up!”
When the other people in the room nodded in recognition, I was sure I was in the right place. These women are going through the exact same struggles and temptations. Dealing with people who can’t/won’t support you in your weight loss goals. Guilt. Frustration. After sitting through the first meeting, I have all the motivation I needed to start my weight loss journey!